Now what am I to choose?

Thursday, June 22, 2006


There seems to be a mixup here...I was confused then about what I would be going as far as my career goes. Now that I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, I am now being offered other positions. Now what the hell am I gonna do? On the contrary I would still know that I am currently enjoying my work. How would we be able to choose between the PROS: where I could earn bigger, I could be higer in position and the CONS: where I would be still under operations, mostly getting nowhere but where I am enjoying work. I have decided to go with the latter since that would be preferrable for a guy my age. Hey! Where did I get the idea that I am aging? huh? Well, I dunno really. I don't know what to do right now... I'm just gonna need more time I think and wait and see how far it goes... Hopefully there would still be more room for promotion in the future... Good luck to me I guess!...

Love...a tired one...

Sunday, June 04, 2006


You sometimes really get tired of loving... I have given up again on goin back to my same old story... Bein fooled once again... I never really want t do it but it always comes to a point that I have to in order to be happy... At what cost? You really say it is costly. A date nowadays is not that affordable, if you would want to keep your partner happy you would have to think about how yed be able to spend the next day on a different manner to become interesting. These days, it's really not about the sex and how I often have to do it because that would really be not a relationship if I would only be the one who's happy right?! Who's to tell what I have to do, it's not a script at all so you run out of ideas after a while. Like you are burned out at work, the same goes here. I don't really complain a lot but it seems I am again. Well, not much on other people... I usually complain about what I do everyday... Am I complaining now? Yeah...you can say that... I just do this because I am hurt I guess...just loaded myself with tons of work so I wouldn't be grieving over this...this is becoming too pathetic. Go figure!