KUMAGCOW - The Goodlooking Guy on His Journey : )

Working out! This is what Im gonna spend most of my time now since Im not yet satisfied with my physique. My original plan of getting Vin Diesel's Body in 3 months seem to be a little far fetched. Im trying my best now to do it everyday. If possible, I'll try working out on my day off's. Im worried about my relationships also right now but I think I better get off of them for a while so I can get money first. I have to earn more enough to satisfy my needs. But that is not happening right now. I don't even have enough savings for a trip around asia. Im planning one but it seems it too will take time. I plan to buy a car but where would I be able to park it? In the Philippines, you can probably park it anywhere. Though in my town, it is already on a survey that we have the highest incidents of car theft in the City. It's so near the carnapper's haven "BANAWE" that it would be a joke if you just park your car outside. When you wake up 2mrw you won't have a hub cap, mirror and wheels. Sometimes they get your radio, if out of luck you'll probably never see your car again. So I am really thinking not twice, but a hundred times before I would buy one. Maintenance is hard already, stealing the accessories, then buying a new one is not a good way of getting my money's worth. Instead of being more convenient, I'd be getting more problems. I better wait till Im able to use the Van regularly so I won't waste more money on that. I'd better save it for Europe. I'm off to gym now... to get my belly flat and sculptured! See yah!

Waiting again... The promotion or next position I've applied for is still not materializing... What the hell is my company doing?!! This is the longest time I've waited since I was able to submit my exams... Geeze... Red tape and the old beaurocracy is still in the Philippines!!! Hail to King Kong!!!
I think it would be better now to probably look for something more.. More economically sound; and something nice to work in... This place has been toxic... very very toxic... I plan to go here if I find a reasonably attractive package but if not then goodbye!!! Hehehe... It's as easy as that but why the hell am I still here?... Friends are also a big part of it... but that's a long shot... I maybe on a stomp because I am afraid to move on and get another job that would be able to satisfy my spending habits. Good deal I haven't tried to get another credit card yet, I would have gotten buried in debt if that was the case.

I wanna fly high now just like in Top Gun. Now I finally have the answer to one of my life's questions. Is it possible for me to be loved? The answer is YES. Last night I popped the question and this love of mine said YES!! When all along I thought she was just playing with me. I thought it was not serious until I just found out last nyt. I am so overwhelmed by happiness right now. I almost fainted when she answered my texts back with the words "I LOVE U TOO" I was not in my own self until early this morning. I had to go to work of course but I'll probably spend the time with her later after working out. I thought it was just a one night thing, but now I seem to believe that there is really something special for me this year. I just have to be patient...really patient in order to acheive my goals in lyf. HAPPY NA PO AKO officially. Right now, I dont really know what to do with the other 3. I think something might come up this week about that, I don't want this happiness to end but it seems to be just around the corner. This should always be my condition. Happy and just chillin... From the depths of our heart we want to be happy all the time, but we are not usually very concerned with the happiness and freedom of others. I'll try to work it out...some other way I hope.

Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence.

Money makes the world go around... The 4 relationships I have right now is so expensive... I'm still keeping up with these girls but my GOD!!!!!! It costs so much!!! I can't even get a decent date for a few hundred... Its a great thing some of them choose to stay in their house to play with ye mouse!!! Hopefully I'd be in the right mind to maybe take care just a few of them ryt now... The job I just applied for is not materializing yet so I'm keeping my options open ryt now...hopefully I'd get a better salary next time...if not here...somewhere else.... I'll try continuing this tommorrow... I better get to the gym... My beer belly's gettin bigger!!!!

Yehey!!!! I now have on hand the application form for the position I'm applying for!! Just came from my email today. Although it includes an exam that I have to accomplish before monday. Hopefully I'd be able to get it done!!... Hope I pass the mark and with flying colors... I try and proof read everything else before posting it for their review. I am not satisfied yet so I plan to maybe edit it also later... geeze... I need to get promoted asap because I am currently drowning in boredom... Either that, or I would probably be looking for another job... elsewhere that is... Need to find a low maintenance, high paying job... I need to take a rest... Hopefully I'd be able to do a better job this time... which is weird... I probably would never thought that this would still push through.... but if in case it does, I'll try my best to move the ladder and perform better this time... Now, where was I... I am currently spending my time wisely on editing my resume and also the exam... It's both technical and common knowledge based so I'd probably be able to do it faster if I am under pressure... I have no more ideas on what to comment about the existing system that we have here because its thorough enough... I think I just need to improve some of the information indicated on the documentations... I'd probably be able to finish this one later... Hopefully... Hopefully.... Hehehe.... I'm glad though that they bothered to email me now... : )

Well, I don't know what to do with my breaks so I'm just here updating my blog. I really am pissed coz the position I'm applying for is still up for grabs and the damn nitwit is still not giving me any notices. They should at least inform me if they are interested or not. I'm not gonna wait for that the whole year... I hate it when people do that...So sick.. really sick... But if in case that does not push through, I'd probably be able to send and apply some other positions... Hopefully I'd get a better one than that... Geeze... In line with this frustration, I'm gonna post "So Sick" by Ne-yo. This guy has great talent. Nice MTV also. The only problem is I couldnt remember how it sounded like when just looking at the plain lyrics. Hopefully I'd be able to get a copy of his song one of these days. I'm also planning to buy his CD. I'd probably use his song for relaxation... which I plan to do maybe in the next few days. Here goes!!!! Enjoy!!!


"So Sick"
Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone.
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15thBecause since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first childI'm letting go
Turning off the radio
Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

There are a lot of things that I'm doing today. But I just remembered I had an account in Gunbound that I have never used for quite a while, it was still active though when I logged in on their website. I like that game a lot coz I have a lot of "syotas" as they may say while I was online. You just really cannot refuse to do that. If it were just a dream, then it's okay... I'm still at the lowest level in this game because I refuse to pay for a prepaid card. That should have gotten me a lot of avatars so my character would be jazzed up. Nobody could beat me then. I like the gameplay because it would let you dream a lot about battles even when yer already sleeping...weird huh?!! Just still at the point of getting Gold so I can get my character get the best avatars. Maybe after a few rounds I'd be able to get the Archangel set. That'll take me to higher places. Hopefully... just hopefully.
I'm still not happy with work. Anguish, that is the word I'm trying to digest right now. Hard to get people to understand what I really mean about working here. Geeze... The days are really getting to be a pain in the ****. I'd rather spend more time at home or with my love. Corny huh?!! Hehehe. Go figure! I'm the corniest guy there is! You aint got nobody to match my kung fu!! Haik! But ye know, maybe I'm just getting old that's why I'm not fond of playing online games... wut do you think? Or am I just plain tired? Probably... but what can I do... I'm just a nobody... Goodluck to me!!! Hopefully I'd get more time to play this game before my account expires. Thanks to mobius they're losing lotsa clients...coz the game too is getting too old. I know, I have friends who work there. I bet yah!! :)

I have nothing to do today except go to gym and go home later. I chanced upon a website that sorts people into guilds on the "Harry Potter" series. They said I'm a Raven Claw!!! But I dont even know what that means.... Heheh...
Maybe later, I'll try calling my special someone... I really enjoy talking with this person... I'd like to be with this person the whole day but I can't coz I have to be here in the office and work... So sad... So bad... How I wish I could do more to make our relationship a li'l better... Sometimes, when I ask myself... Is it fair enough that this person treats me this way? What if this special smeone turns out to be another disappointment? What would I do again? Would I be still reverting to drugs like I did the last time I got depressed? What else would I do to make this person happy? What would I do to make this person care? Sooooo many questions.... Sooooo many ummm... expectations? When will I get the answers!!??? WHoooooohhh!!!!!! So bad!!! So good!!! I dunno what else to do