Eat, Pray, Love, Damuhan

I wish this was easy
But I'm sure it never will be
How can I get over someone like you
When I see you in my dreams as a MA LIG NO

 I go crazy
And wanted to even push you to the John
But I couldn't really do that 
I'd have to figure out the PANITIKAN

I promised them one by one
A leg or a limb; as much as we can
I don't know if it would work much of I am
But that's how they see it; their own LARAWAN

Bothered; wasting all my tears with all that
It maybe true, maybe just one KULISAP
Should I dare what all I have to say;
Maybe I'll try and do that some other day.

To tell you how I feel my love
Is more than what I could explain; go on;
 Does it matter that I'd lose a lot of blood?
Maybe so rather than eat my own GALUNGGONG

Can you give back my pride; down inside;
I don't know how but that's my HINUHA
Couldn't deal with it, hurting more; decide;
 Never want to live another ZARSUELA

It's always with friends that I feel so good;
A visit to a SILID-AKLATAN might shy away; understood.
I love the thought of coming come to you.
KAGAWARAN and all. Like a ray of light shining through.


If I live with love; flying like a SARANGGOLA
I'd be less confused of what I'll ever want to be
More than the love of Edward and Bella
Maybe then I'll be... one of you... and be your BAYANI
All that and more.. it'll happen someday
It'll be you, me... on the DAMUHAN.
GANYAN.




This is an entry to the Bagsik ng Panitik contest by Bino Bautista of DAMUHAN. 
Beat that! Hahaha! #FirstClass! #KapalKalaMoMananaloLOL

Shots From The Grand Press Conference of Corazon: Ang Unang Aswang

I was one of the few guys who probably got so depressed after the Maria La Del Barrio Finale, why you ask? Well let's put it this way, its just so hard to understand that we won't see them every night anymore. Erich Gonzales and Enchong Dee pretty much are like friends and if I don't see them that regularly, you kinda long for them... It's a natural thing. ABSCBN did a pretty nice job reinterpreting and extending the MLDB run. I wonder what projects they have next? Erich Gonzales answered that question a few days ago.

This was the Grand Press Conference of Corazon: Ang Unang Aswang. Shooting this started years ago, even before No Other Woman. It was quite difficult because they had to create a whole other world in the vicinity of Rizal. The whole town and story was a child project of Director Richard Somes and yes he's got a whole production outfit called SKYLIGHT FILMS to back this up. Star Cinema believes that this project will surely be another hit not to mention the two past movies that had Derek Ramsay in it. This is his favorite movie too, he was always telling the press how excited he is about this coming out. It was high time because he knows how important this is in merely telling the story. Imagine how creeped people are in the teasers then later to find out that this is mostly a LOVE STORY and DRAMA. The great story, plot and skilled actors like Derek and Erich, it's surely a formula for International release. We have yet to find out later if its going to happen, I'm sure Star Cinema can do this.

You should definitely watch how PASSION and LOVE come into play in their relationship. How a man loves a woman. How a wife would give it all to make her husband happy. I don't think I really need to convince you to watch Corazon: Ang Unang Aswang, because just knowing Erich Gonzales and Derek Ramsay will be there would spell YES... am I right?! =) Plus Derek says that his LOVE Scene with Erich here is WAAAAAY more passionate than his scenes in No Other Woman... the same person who shot that is the one who shot the scenes here too. So just think about it... you know you gotta watch this! Showing in cinemas on March 14, 2012!

Now I promised you guys that I'll be releasing some photos from the Grand Press Conference right? Here it is! =)

Here's hoping we get over the sadness brought about the end of Maria La Del Barrio! I really miss that show.. =(

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Valentines Day: So What! LOL!

A lot of people don't care weather its Valentines Day or not, one of them is ME. Of course there will be a lot of people raising their eyebrows... probably most will say I'm bitter, or maybe tell themselves that I'm like this because I'm not happily married. Well, for you guys, let me say this one thing.... I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!

Hahaha... first of all, the reason I'm single is NOT YOUR BUSINESS. Second is that if you think you are HAPPY because you are with someone, think again... not everyone who's married is truly HAPPY. Go to the corner and chant spells to make yourself believe your own lie. Don't even tell me about your kids, I can have that in my spare time. I hate you people for thinking that you are all that just because you have a family. I can go out every week and get women as much as I did years ago, actually I even got better now. I get laid when I want to. While you on the other hand only have one at home... not that I'm saying... but just sayin LOL!


I can still go out to clubs, drink or smoke in posh places and go to every single one of them anytime I want to. You on the other hand probably just call your friends and sit outside your house and drink like #sunogbaga's telling yourself that you are happy doing that. That's right, keep telling that to yourself. Hahahahah!

Someone just asked me out for a date, I told her "Huh?! Why should I go out today don't you think its cheesy?!" She said "Because its Valentines Day and I don't have a date!".. I answered "So what am I a pity date?! Do I look that desperate to you?!", she said "Because you don't have one too and I figured we go out like old times.." I said "Hunny I'm not that historical to be part of your "OLD TIMES" I'd rather not go out to be part of your culture. She said "sungit mo naman!" hahahah and I told her, no, I'm not a snob, I just hate going out just because it's this day or whatnot... I'd rather go out for the right reasons. If I wanted to go out I'll do that on weekends and I'm not going there to see someone I'll marry. Bars were made for hookups, if you find a diamond in the rough that's another story.

She said "You know what, you should get married soon... I'd like to see you married off rather than growing old not having someone to take care of you"... I said "Hunny, if I only married so someone could love and take care of me, I'd hire a caregiver or get a personal doctor... Sharon Cuneta could do that."

This Valentines Day sucks, it's full of people who want to pretend that they are happy. I wouldn't wanna break it to you guys but you have been hooked by people who want to sell flowers, food and stuff that make you fat. Commercialism at its finest! You'll die early and spend a fortune on all that crap and hospital bills. If you want to show someone you love em it wouldn't cost that much. Be happy if you are married; but don't go telling someone else that they are not happy because they are still single. I can do that tomorrow if I wanted to! =P don't make us look bad just so you can feel so superior because you have extra baggage.

For those who I heard were talking behind my back; eat my shorts! Always remember that envy is the art of counting the other fellow's blessings instead of your own so in a way you are an ungrateful basta*d! LOL!


IKR?! DUH!

Another Date Night

After getting a year older today I have so much on my plate right now. That includes getting another girl before Christmas. I don't want it to be too cold because no one is raising their hand and volunteer to give me a hug this holiday season so I'm taking this seriously. Even if it isn't winter in this part of the world you could still feel it. The loneliness creeps in no matter what the temperature reads. If that date that I so long dream about comes or not; I'll feel the same and be optimistic. I want to see some milwaukee singles to get this out of my system. I'm sure there are a lot of qualified women that are up to my standards. She has to be smart, stable and a little bit aggressive. I like that in a girl.

I just arrived from a club. Aside from the party I like the part where they all go out of their way to get to know people. I must admit I'm a little bit put off with those who are a little bit drunk but if they still were able to hold the conversation, I'm okay with that. I was interested with one particular lady but she might be keeping some things to herself. I wouldn't blame her though because if someone else was as aggressive as I am I'd do that too. I was pretty wild and trying my best to get the party started with my friends. I'm sure if I call her later this evening I'll get a chance to talk to her privately just so we can get to know each other better. If this happens to be something good in the long run please say a little prayer for me. I need all the help I can get okay?!

Life is full of surprises and if I get a partner before Christmas this must be a sign! Ha-ha! Wish me luck!

You Think You're Cooler Than Me?!

I want to believe in love but it doesn't seem to always work. Why do I often ask myself if I want to love again when I don't even care anymore if I end up with someone or not? I'm a walking psychological nightmare; what have I turned myself into?! Is this all I'm going to be? Am I going to just linger in an entirely abysmal future of failed relationships?! Sheesh... I don't like this feeling... I am so down right now I could knock at hell next door. Hello melon collie... how have you been these past few years?!

I need to be hopeful in more ways than one. I'm pretty difficult to understand in times like these. There were times I was so desperately in love with a friend. That didn't end quite nicely too. I think I never moved on from that either. If I meet her again I probably would feel awkward and lose that sanity... if there is still some left. Haaaay... the last time I felt like this was ages ago. I can't say "I told you so!" to "myself" for obvious reasons. I almost forgot what it felt to be human. I hate it... I hate it...

Love shouldn't be this complicated. I know se* isn't but look at what's happening now. You think I should revert back to my emo rocker days?! Nah.. I didn't look too cute that time (but I'm trying hard to stay not cute LOL). I miss what I had. I thought it was forever but I guess sometimes their forever is so short. What's up with women these days, can't they just listen and understand me first before demanding anything?! Do they think they can just get another man cooler than me?! I doubt it!

You think you're cooler than me?! =)

Daily Moo's 09132010

It was the first time in 5 days that I got to sleep soundly. I didn't have a headache when I woke up. Hallelujah! I think its because I prayed for it too. =)

I think I have high blood pressure. I refuse to go to the doctor, I'm afraid I might die sooner than I think. Then my best friend and I talked this evening, you know the topic???? It was all about what to do when I die and what caskets to put me in... funny huh?!

I still haven't got my own Eraserheads CD Set. I'm going to call my friend in Greenwich later. He's supposed to call me once supplies come but its been days... I think I should shoot someone when I don't get it ha-ha! I have become more vicious all of a sudden! Ha-ha!

I'm going to get myself one of those gorilla pods from CDRKING, I think they are the perfect pair for my Flip Ultra HD. The question is when can I fix that busted lens on it?! I need to get someone to fix that for me. I'm a little afraid doing DIY things because most of the time I break em even further. Not good for an expensive gadget hehe!

I hate paying for almost everything at home. I am losing a lot. What can we do with feudal obligations?! Why is it so embedded in our culture?! Don't you kinda hate it?! But what can we do, they are after all my family. I couldn't bare to see them asking favors from other people. I can still help but upto what extent. I'm not that rich as people may presume me to be. I look the part but I'm not. Somebody save me!!!!!

I need to go out again this weekend. I need to start out romance and all the shizzle dizzle whatever the wizzle snoop dogg has up his sleeves. Please, whoever you are take it easy on me!! My heart just healed so be careful ok?! =P

Yaaaaaak!!!!!!! LOL!

I Give My First Love to You

Sounds kinda confusing how this post ended up here huh?! Well let's say I've been watching something the past few days. A Japanese movie of the same title. I don't want to give away the plot of the story but it is kind of a drama where you first don't get it but glad you went through watching the whole thing. I'm not into these kind of movies but to tell you honestly I liked it a lot. If you are however going to watch this on youtube don't read the comments since they all want to be spoilers from the get go.

Try to start from this first episode. It all starts with the cute kids and their promises for each other. See how they get through life and love while facing the reality of death. I think that about sums it up but please do take some time to watch it. If this were a book I'm sure it would also be a hit. I've been watching Japanese movies from way back and I think this really is a good one. Rated PG though because there are some scenes not intended for children. It's for teens probably in Japan. If that was their target audience I'm sure a lot of them would have cried. I didn't but hey its still a good thing to watch!

I'm Going Crazy

Sometimes as I sit by myself and contemplate on things, I try and listen to songs that can soothe my mind and set a mood. I heard this over the radio and never got its title and while browsing Youtube I suddenly heard this familiar song again. It was another OMG moment.

Okay guys, here's the news... I think I'm falling in love again. Nyahahahah! I know... how many times do we have to get hurt... how many times do we need to be broken... and here I go again. Well I can't really do anything about it... I'm liking someone just by mere talking to her... how she listens to me crack jokes here and there... ahhh I never learn huh?!

Anyway, if I ever fall off a cliff again I know my friends will be there. To share may agony hahaha!

I'm just gonna try again, no hangups or what not... just gonna have fun with her and see where we end up. :) I know what you are thinking but hey give me a break! I've been single for a year already I think... that's how I started photography in the first place =P

Okay just for fun I'll add this one too! I'm getting a little mushy but please let me have fun with this one okay?! I'll tell you about it soon.

Maybe I Am...

Now isn't it obvious that I am inlove?! How in the world am I running around in circles trying to find something else to do when all I think about is her.... why in the world am I so frantic to go out of the office and go out with friends when all I think about is her. Why in the world am I trying to forget her when all I could think about in that same instance is her. Why do I ask myself the silliest questions when I know for a fact that the only answer is her.

Do I have to forget you in order to put my life into a better place?! Do I have the guts to even tell you what I feel in the first place?! Or will that just destroy my chances of a better relationship with you. Do I have to hope these things turn out great after I tell you the truth?! or should I just stop dreaming and stop believing you are meant for me in one way or another?!

All I know is... I want to see you, I want to be with you.... but I don't want to ruin what we have now. I don't care if you have someone already, you are not married anyway! I like you and if you take the chance on me I'll prove you wrong that things like these destroy friendships like ours. I'll make sure you get what you deserve... I still believe everything would be better!

Staying In Love

It hurts a lot!

I'm in the middle of things right now because this almost 9 month relationship of mine is on the rocks. I admit to be at fault on some degree but its a conscious effort for both of us to work on our differences and maybe sometime soon we would resolve it. I almost lost hope in love, but you know how your past experiences come rushing back when you need it? I think that happened with me and I try each day to cope with the depression, analysis of the situation and seeking a glimmer of hope that everything will soon be alright.

I met her through common friends in the Internet and I don't want to tell everybody that it's the the greatest place to look for love. For starters, I was only after steady dating and the consequences between my quest to look for that special someone ended on one fine drinking spree while out with our friends. Not really because I was under the influence of alcohol but maybe because we were both free of our inhibitions at that time. We became more serious after that and we really did fall in love. I'm starting to fix this but I probably need more time. It will all be better, I know it will. For you guys out there that think there's no hope for you to find a loved one, there are thousands of Internet dating services you can go to. Try out passion search that gives you the chance to use every medium imaginable to get hooked up on line. Maybe someday you'll be luckier than me and meet that special person that the one above made especially for you.

Relationships and Heartaches; and I try to help my friends ^_^

EMO ako ngayon walang pakelamanan AMPFUFU!
(I'm EMO today don't mess with me!)

I am not a psychiatrist.. nor am I claiming that I am an expert in this field. I'm really not. But in my own sweet time, I try to help others cope with their dilemma. I have a colorful lovelife... some of them even are published in this blog but then again who cares! (NO!!!! don't even try to look for my love problems in the archives silly you!)

I try and help my friends whenever I can about their problems, (no not FINANCIAL ones!, I am not that rich...where did you get that idea?! sheesh!) and I've been like that for ages... I mean even in high school I was one of the few people you can run to and analyze things detrimental with matters of the heart. As corny as it sounds, I've loved and only share what I know works for me.Friends give me problems really... ^_^

These past few weeks, it seems to me that my friends are all in a ditch... rushing to me and ask about what they want to do with their own corny Love matters:

CASE # 1 FALLING OUT

Things were so nice when it started, Johndoe and his girlfriend Janedoe had a pretty nice relationship. They were inlove I guess. Johndoe just came from an OFF and ON relationship, he ended that and started this one with Janedoe. They had done it as well... a couple of times... I knew about it then coz Johndoe kept on bragging about it when we had a chance to talk...then a few weeks after... he messaged me and told me it was FAILING... why? he had a couple of reasons... but out of everything that he said... one thing was evidently happening... he was falling out of love for her... I did ask him why but all he said was... it was not like what it was.. (that was a lot of was O_O)... it just ain't working out anymore... he wanted to let go.... I told him not to do so... why? Janedoe#1 was not in the position to just let go of everything... she was madly inlove with him still... she ended up cursing him a couple of times... because of course as much as we "men" want to clean about breakups... we need a valid reason to tell women and not just "because we want to"... I only told him that the relationship that they had was not to be taken lightly... more so that the girl was already madly inlove... she will be hurt... I asked the guy to at least try to work it out and talk to her once more... he was pessimistic... and still opted for a breakup... but then again I instilled to him to be at least aware of the girl's feelings... try... at least try.... if it still ends up bad, then decide if it really is worth it to let go.... at least they both won't have the feeling of regret if ever things really do not work out with them both... at least they tried their best... a couple of months worth of a relationship is a BIG DEAL nowadays... I mean its not that common anymore that people stay a week or less than that LOLZ.... and I tried to tell him make amends and if things still went KAPUT! they would end up friends instead of hating each other because the other did not do their job keeping it... I btw kept it a point to at least end up friends with my ex's... we live in a small world! we'll bump into each other one day and at least they won't tell me I did not do my best saving the relationship... now isn't that neat?! ^_^ I'll be hearing from them soon I guess... if things did not work out... I'll let you know.


CASE #2 KUNG FU FIGHTING

This was my Ex's bestfriend... which I ended up being friends with... yeah I'm that friendly I guess but really that's part of the job to at least get to know your wifey's set of friends. Now back to him... this guy was in a couple of relationships in the past that did not really last... some only lasted weeks... months.... and now this one became serious... they were already together in an apartment... just living in.... and the trend was.. this was the most serious of all of them... I mean who on eart would not wish of someone you could end up forever with... well.. he thought it was forever...

So when they lived together... as expected... their own set of skeletons and demons went out of their closets and said hi and hello to both of them... and what used to be perfect and blissful in the beggining became a HELLHOLE after almost a year... their fights? it just became almost everyday... the former I LOVE YOU'S.... became I'LL SLAP YOU's... and what's worst is that... they both do it...funny as it sounds but it looks like a Kung Fu movie in their house.. threats here and there... slaps, words thrown at each other... blocks... pots pans and dinner plates flying across the room... (remeber house of flying daggers? ^_^ ) something they thought was forever... is now a big NIGHTMARE... yeah it is bound to end.

He asked me that he changed so they would both be happy... that it was not like him to just stand around and fight with someone every single day... telling me he wants to leave her already... its a good thing they didnt have a kid otherwise it would be more complicated I said.. I told him since it seems that its not working out, and they are already hurting each other he has to decide to end it all. He has the option to try and save it, but he was really not optimistic either. I said "You already know what to do...why ask me?!"... he said thanks that "it just became clear to him". So they'll probably talk this evening about it and make steps to out of each others nerves from hereon.

CASE #3 PROFESSIONAL LOVERS

Two people fell inlove... from the same group of friends where I was also included ended a few weeks ago. A Nurse and a Pharmacist which is an unlikely combination (coz in my mind if they live together the house would probably look like a hospital O_O) the guy (the Nurse) fell inlove with the latter (the pharmacist)... and so they did end up together... had done it as well... but things were not that great after a few weeks... The pharmacist who recently passed the board exams got a job as a med rep for a very reputable company... the nurse on the other hand wished to live and work abroad so he was fixing his papers already... both were busy... and on times that they only could meet, it rarely happened... because of schedule constraints. They ran out of time for each other... and small things, like going out with other friends and appointments became a BIG DEAL. They barely had time for each other yet the nurse was still going out with other people at times expected to be spent with the pharmacist. The pharmacist went ahead of the game and asked to temporarily give time off... a COOL OFF period as locally known here... but then the Nurse did not like that idea.... small fights here and there.... then they formally separated... I only still asked them to be friends... yes its ironic... but I wanted them to... since we are in the same group, I'd rather have them acknowledge each other.... have that be left behind... adn continue on this time as friends... now they are and even joking about it... I am happy this one ended this way. ^_^

So you see, I am not an expert.... but then again I try my best to fix things that are still feasible to fix... they ask my opinion, I just give them what I need them to hear... and not sugarcoat every word uttered off of my mouth... I'm happy some ended nicely.... and hopeful that the others will still be the same... after all... I'm just here for all of them... I'm a friend and I'd like to continue to be one. ^_^