Warning: This ain't a healthy post today... I guess I have to tell you guys something... I'm not into these mushy stuff but it has to start somewhere... EMO? I don't know but at least I am trying to start again....
How long has it been since I got out of that relationship?... Was it enough to keep me sane through the months I have been keeping my self busy with photography? Was it worth it to finally say goodbye?
To tell you the truth, I have been going out again since we are covering events for posh clubs in the metro. I don't want to; but it seems the friendships and camaraderie I get with the friends I made through this new hobby of mine made me appreciate nightlife again. I was tempted to, but I have to be professional, models keep coming in and out each day. Sometimes I want to even fall in love again but I just could not think of that anymore since I just got out of a relationship... a long one. Even if I wanted to hold on to that thought, I think I should stop sometime soon. I'm not in a hurry but getting married is good, though I am sometimes talked about I would not want to settle down just for the sake of getting into it. I want to be with the one I will love forever. I can wait, even if it takes me a lifetime...
As for now, even if I was the one who ended our relationship, I am still hurting. I know I am gonna be alright...
*excerpt from Side A's song*
So let the pain remain forever in my heart...
For every throb it brings is
One more moment spent with you....
I'll let the pain bring on the rain...
If that's the only way...
If there's no other way to be with you again...
=(
